I’m Jane (Pseudo) and I’m currently living in South Waikato, New Zealand. I started this personal blog to air my views on the current state of affairs in New Zealand from someone who is on a low income (benefit) and trying to get on the employment ladder. I care very much what happens to people and how they live and I keep watch of all the things that are happening in and around New Zealand. It’s a dog eat dog world out there and it can be very unkind to those who are struggling. And there are many Kiwis struggling. It is my hope that this blog inspires you to go out into the community and help in ANY way you can. I also hope this blog gives you comfort if you are currently experiencing problems. I’m only an email away and I invite you to talk to me. A problem shared is a problem halved.

I’m schizophrenic, have been since my early twenties. I have struggled to maintain a ‘normal’ life and even my own family and friends do not know the extent I have suffered. I largely keep my illness to myself. I am currently on Job Seeker support and looking for work as part of my obligations. My CV does not look pretty and it’s certainly not enticing enough to gain employment with the few opportunities available in Tokoroa. I have HUGE gaps in my work history because of my illness and for the fact I cannot drive. However, I am committed in changing that. Yes I do realise I am miles behind other people in my age bracket, but I have struggled most of my life working minimum wage jobs. Living in Tokoroa has meant I am only able to walk to work as there is no public transport and I am restricted to finding work locally rather than surrounding areas. But I am eager to get started in the workplace and I am continually looking for a job that I can actually do.

No, I do not have a medical certificate and I do not get disability allowance although I am entitled to it. This is because I don’t like the pa lava of the WINZ merry go round or having to go to the Dr’s appointments. It used to give me an extra two dollars per week but I ended up paying more for Dr’s appointments then was needed so I’m much better off not having the allowance.

I have no history of serious predicaments with the Dr as I am usually too ill to see a doctor when I do fall ill. I’m not registered with Mental Health either as it takes at least 2 months to see someone and when I am ill I generally need help immediately. Waiting two months for an appointment defies the object of seeing a Professional Dr when I need them. So I largely keep to myself and get over the hard parts of the illness with the support of my family and friends.

I keep up to date with the latest help available through a Schizophrenic Forum where I can talk to other Schizophrenics about what helps them. I self-medicate with Sarcosine, a brain vitamin made only available in the US. Luckily it’s cheap and I’ve had a superb run since taking it. In fact, it’s made me well enough to seek employment and that has been a HUGE lifesaver.

I’m uneducated professionally, but educated in life. I’m passionate about helping people. I want to live in a country where the little guy gets looked after. There are many circumstances that people find themselves in that will need the support of local communities and government initiatives. I want to be a part of that support. MY LIFE MATTERS. Kiwis matter. We ALL matter. Let’s all work together to make a beautiful world.

Kind Regards